and because I think, I am.



Being worn out from the day, I fell asleep by 8:30pm, while screening a work-related DVD on my computer, and with my desk lamp on and bedroom door wide-open exposing my fully lit closing scene - Me in bed, cuddled with my blankets, still in my work clothes, exhausted. At one point, perhaps around 11ish, I woke up briefly and thought to myself, I should get up, turn things off, wash up and get undressed but instead I drifted right back to my dream...

... I was jumping from roofhouse tops to roofhouse tops (Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon indeed) trying to find my way back home. I say trying because it was quite dark and I wasn't quite used to the bird's eye view yet so my path was unsure. Still, with no time to loose, I swiftly moved forward - with the belief that your destination unfolds itself when moving about rather than standing still. With loose debree crashing to the ground and dogs barking in the night, I finally made my way back to my room. Sensing that I might have an audience still, I immediately jumped into bed, not wanting anyone to notice just how hard I've tried in getting there. But at the same time, since I didn't want people to NOT notice me, I deliberately left the lights on. As I waited and waited for someone to visit, I began getting frustrated at my dilemma. How do I let people know that I'm home without announcing it like the needy kid that I am.

Just then, I heard someone approach. I turned over. It was my mother... and as she has said many times before in my youth, she sternly but compassionately ordered, "Go to sleep. It's late. I'm gonna turn off your lights and your computer for you."

With that I woke up to see that indeed, my computer was still running, my lights still on, and it was now 1:30am. Half expecting my mother as well, I was dissappointed to realize that she was back home on the east coast and nowhere near to urge me to get proper rest.

And so I'm up now... wondering about my next move.

For life unfolds when you are moving about, not when standing still.